60 views

That's really sad! I've had my blog for 5 months and it's only been viewed 60 times

Seriously? That's 12 times a month....That's 3 times a week. That's not even once a day!

Ladies and gentlemen...She did math without her fingers! WOOO!!!

Now that I've been updating more, I expected people to read it more...aparently not.

Sadtimes, guys...sadtimes. Lol. I'm going to put a poll up or maybe a Pole? Lol ohhh puns...

anyway...I'll create a poll and see if people would read my blog more if I updated more often.

But if no one reads it... no one will vote; ergo, defeating the purpose of the poll.... but I'll give it the 'ol College try!

more poetry

This one's a bit more personal... but no one really reads my blog anyway lol...it's about my sister!

no she's not dead... she just moved to the other side of the world!

When someone asks me if I miss you
I dont know what to say
When someone asks me if I miss you
I tell them "every single day"
When someone asks me if I miss you
the answer should be clear
When someone asks me if I miss you
i say "Whenever she's not here"
When someone asks me if I miss you
I don't know where to start
when someone asks me if I miss you
I say "I'm missing half my heart"
When someone asks me if I miss you
Because they know you chose to leave
So now when someone asks me if I miss you
I'll answer "Only when I breathe"

Things that are funny to me but may not be to you

So on the news feed I get on my phone... there was a story last week about a kid who was decapitated by a ride at Six Flags

no, thats not the funny part.

So aparently, the kid climbed over the fence of the Batman ride...got too close, and the ride took off his head... It's tragic, yes

But the funny part? The story said "Teenager decapitated by ride... autopsies still being done"

What else do you need to know?

Cause of death...he has no head!

Next thing... let me disclaimer this one by saying that I take AMBER Alerts very seriously and find no humor in the actual abduction or situation

But there is one funny thing
This morning, dad and I were on our way to work and saw a sign for a child abduction

the car? an '84 red PORCHE

not very inconspicuous if you ask me.

Even better was on the way home there was another alert...

The car? A purple and gold RV!

Seriously? What happened to unmarked vans?


I think that's all I had to say

oh yeah, and... 33 days!

Not My Friend

So I was listening to my jazz selection on my ipod at work today and this song came on and I absolutely love it... it's a good emo jazz song...if those even exist... anyway... do you ever have those songs that just perfectly describe how you're feeling at the moment?


this is it. It's called "Not My Friend" by Norah Jones


"Not My Friend"
Help me breathe,
Help me believe,
You seem really glad that I am sad.

You are not my friend,
I cannot pretend that you are.
You made it sting,
Your voice is ringing,
Just like the boys who laughed at me in school.

You are not my friend,I
cannot pretend anymore.

You found a place,
No one should ever go.
I'll be ok,'
cause when I back away
I'm gonna keep the handle of your gun in sight.

"The Office"

No, not the show.



My office...well, not MY office... Technically the office belongs to the Baldwin Park Industrial Center....But you get the picture.



In case I haven't told any of you... I work for my dad now. At a comapny called California Lighting Sales. They're a lighting brokerage. They...(or shall I say "we") are kind of the middle man between the people who manufacture lighting fixtures...and conractors.



Anyway, I work back in the accounting office..I do data entry, cover phones, file, tap dance, whatever they need done... sans the tap dance



Not terribly exciting... but it's a great job and I make pretty good money. And I work full time! YAY! Nepotism at its finest.



The office environment is a funny culture. In alot of ways, this office reminds me of the show. Complete with nutty employees... (present company excluded)



The same people take the same lunch everyday...they all have specific turns at the microwave...they all sit at the same place at the same table and watch the same soap opera everday. They even eat the same thing everyday. It's even the same basic conversation. It's amazing!



One of these days, I want to go sit in someone else's seat just to see what would happen. I'd probably be banned from the lunch room for all eternity. haha.

It's like clock work, though...its amazing

my boss asked me "do you know how to put things in numerical order?"

My response in my head "you mean can i count?"
My actual response:" Sure do!"

My Boss "Do you know how to alphabetize things?"
Response in my head:" do i know my ABC's? YEAH! Wanna sing along with me?I know my alphabet in 2 different languages, thankyouverymuch!"
Actual Response:" Yes m'am"

I think that's all I had to say about the office environment :)for now, at least...

OOH! I get a swipey badge to get in the gates and in the office...i have my own desk/cubicle a computer, even my own extension! YES! I AM important

The office building even has a gym...I plan to start working out on my lunch break...awesome!!

catharsis

Catharsis

Not her
Not good enough
Not tall enough
Not athletic enough
Not pretty enough
Not thin enough
Not worth my pain

Too much pain
Too many sacrifices
Too much fighting
Too hurtful
Too much sleep lost over you
Too many tears
Too hard

No love
No respect
No time for apologies
No more taking up space in my head
No more crying myself to sleep
No more wasted time

So what
So hard
So wrong
So broken
So hurtful
So... done

Just wow

There's so much to talk about


But somehow, I can't find words


I'm so completely done... I'm SO ready to go into AIM now.


Onward and Upward!